Hey everyone, it’s been a long time since I last posted. Part of the reason is that I didn’t feel it was yet time to post. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had a few post ideas formulating in my mind but I just knew that the time to post them had not yet arrived.
Can I be honest with you? I have this really bad thing I do where I just shut off from the world when I’m going through a really tough time. If I had my way I wouldn’t even be on Whatsapp but of course, I’m in quite a few groups and have some responsibilities which I can’t shirk. I shut off mostly because I don’t like talking about my emotions and how I really feel. It’s not necessarily a good thing and I am getting a lot better with articulating my feelings and the like. Another reason I shut off is because I don’t like to burden other people with my issues so I just keep it to myself.
Sometimes when you’re there for others you forget to be there for yourself and it is something I struggle with. The first quarter of the year has been challenging to say the least. The kind of challenging where you think you can’t possible sink any lower yet life has a wonderful way of reaching even lower depths. I honestly do feel like I lost everything and even almost my faith in God. I lost friends who I thought I would see the rest of my life with only to discover that maybe they were only meant to be a part of my life for a season.
There was a time where the thought of just closing this blog down did cross my mind. Not because of anything in particular but perhaps just as another way of me ‘shutting off’ from the world. I’m glad I didn’t though and the blog is still up and running. Slow progress is better than no progress.
Sorry if this post seems a bit disjointed, it’s coming straight from the heart. Here is to better days because they are most definitely on the way😉